Fifth lunch

After a lunch, there are so many things to write about. I always get something from going through the process of feeding people. It has been a month since I have done Free Lunch (I was out of town during the last Free Lunch at Billy's wedding, Patrick filled in for me). This week I took Billy and Holly. Holly's brother does a similar project in San Diego. He is associated with a church and it sounds cool. Check it out here.

After making the lunches, we drove around the usual route and tried to find people under the bridge, but I didn't find anyone. We drove through downtown, and it was pretty quiet. For the first time ever, I had enough lunches to feed everyone on the east side. I learned that 3 people make the east side much more manageable. It felt good to have enough food. I also forgot my glasses, and me driving without glasses is not so good.

I don't know what it will take to break the ice with the people on the east side. For the most part, they still grab and go back to their spot on the curb. I haven't formed any real relationships with anyone yet, and I don't really expect to for a little while, but I am still holding out hope (and that is allowable under the protocol for building relationships as outlined in an earlier post).

Free Lunch puts my feet back on the ground and reminds me of what I can do. If you take a look at the 10 commandments from the Bible, the first 4 deal with a relationship with God, and the last 6 deal with relationships with others. Honor your parents, Don't murder, Don't commit adultery, Don't steal, Don't lie, Don't covet. That's a lot of don'ts for me. Some are easier to follow than others, but if I walk around keeping in mind all the things that I am supposed to don't, I am afraid that I won't do anything.

The new testament keeps it simple (and simple is good). Do love God. Do love your neighbor. I was talking with a friend this past weekend about the ability of humans to do any selfless act. Her thesis was that it is possible to accomplish a selfless act, even if that produces a good feeling for the giver. The good feeling is not the motive, because the act of giving may or may not produce a good feeling. Sometimes it does, and that is great, but I don't think it is possible to prove that a good feeling is always the product. I forgot to ask her how she completed her argument, because I was too selfish to ask her any more about it and I probably started talking about myself. This is probably tied to my need to have everything planned and under control. God forbid I learn anything new from another person. In my experience, my own selfishness has been the single biggest roadblock to getting to know others and being surprised by what the world has to offer. Don't listen was not one of the 10 commandments, neither was don't be teachable, don't wonder, don't explore, don't ask questions, don't be open to change, don't ever be wrong, don't learn, or don't speed while driving.

The transition from don't to do offers a lot of freedom for me. Of course there are still rules, but the produce is more important than the protocol.

Do you like how I slipped in the fact that the 10 commandments says nothing specifically about speeding in a car? I have 5 speeding tickets in the last year and I am trying to figure out some way to justify myself.